Our Identity Crisis

At the centre of my spirit there is a pure and powerful core of unimaginable beauty wherein lies our innate goodness, natural peace, happiness, love and truth. We catch glimpses of them but they are elusive. Although I long to be happy, healthy and prosperous I have forgotten how to access the treasure store that is within me, where all of these lie waiting discovery. No, we look outside and seem to be on an eternal quest to find happiness through outer relationships and distractions. It is when I forget who I am as a spiritual being and think myself to be physical, that the patterns of disease begin to take shape.

I become engrossed in the roles I play and try to seek fulfilment through them, but it is only temporary. Who am I? This reminds me of a letter once sent to me which began -

“Mrs. Helen Wall – Chairman, Chief Executive, Managing Director, Finance Director, I.T. Manager, Marketing Director, Transport Manager, Project Manager, Company Secretary, Advertising Manager, Personal Assistant, Receptionist, Tea Lady, and Office Cleaner!”

Which role am I, or none of them? Who is the real me behind these roles? If we just check through an average day in our own lives, we see that we wear many hats and play many roles.

Activity and doing more and more obsess us, but is it bringing us happiness? We are too action orientated. We fill our lives with ceaseless activity, always on the ‘go’. Some of us find it hard to relax because we are so wound up for action. If we sit down, we feel guilty and look around or think about all the outstanding jobs that always seem to be waiting in the wings. We are in perpetual motion. This is where our lives become very unbalanced.

Our most valuable moments can be when we are still. It is then that we are conserving and accumulating energy. We may even receive insights from our inner wisdom when the mind is quiet. It is at such times that we can connect with our most powerful resources of healing energy.